A Hardened Heart

Based on the story of Isaiah 6: 1-13

Isaiah 6: 5-7

5 Then said I, woe is me! For I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the king, the Lord of hosts. 6 Then flew one of the seraphims unto men having a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with the tongs from off the altar: 7 and he laid it upon my mouth, and said, Lo this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged.

In verse 5 Isaiah observed his sinfulness before God and he confesses his sins to God. This should be an encouragement to us. Isaiah is also forgiven, showing us that we too will be forgiven.

Isaiah saw God in his holiness, when he saw the Throne, the attending seraphims (angels) and the threefold (holy trinity). This was important for Isaiah to see. This is when Isaiah discovered God’s Holiness.

We also need to discover God’s holiness. Our daily experiences, society’s pressures, and our shortcomings reduce and narrow our view of God.

We need the bible’s view of God as high and lifted up to lift us out of our problems and concerns. God’s moral perfection, properly seen, purifies us from sin, cleanses our mind from our problems, and enables us to worship and serve.

Isaiah realized he was hopeless in measuring up to God’s standard of holiness. (we all are.) He was told his sins were forgiven when his lips touched the burning coal. It wasn’t the coal that made him clean but of course God. He had to go through this painful process in order for God to cleanse him. Isaiah devoted himself to God in response to being forgiven. Isaiah was now able to fulfill the task which God was calling him to be. That task was to go to be a messenger to God’s people. This was not going to be an easy task but Isaiah was devoted no matter how hard it would be.

“Before we accept God’s call to speak for him to those around us we must be cleaned as Isaiah was. Letting God purify us may be painful (mentally, emotionally, physically) but we must be purified so that we can truly represent God, who is pure and holy.”

Isaiah 6:9 – 10
9 And he said, Go and tell this people, Hear ye indeed, but understand not; and see ye indeed, but perceive not. 10 Make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy, and shut their eyes; lest they see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and convert, and be healed. 

“God tells Isaiah the people would listen but would not learn because their hearts had hardened beyond repentance. God’s patience  with their chronic rebellion was finally exhausted, and his judgement was to abandon them to their rebellion and hardness of heart.”

Of God – to relent or change mind and heart;
Of man – to be sorry, to make a moral U-turn from sin to God

Hardened Heart:
Is as useless as a lump of clay or a hardened loaf of bread. Nothing can restore it or make it useful. The person is so stubbornly set in his ways that he can not turn to God. It happens over time and it’s a result of choosing to disregard God’s will over and over. If you resist it long enough he may cast you aside like the hardened loaf of bread.

The people would only listen after the land was destroyed by being invaded with armies, the people would be taken captive and have nowhere else to turn. Or it would be the people who returned to Babylone to rebuild it.

Even in Judgement God is merciful.

Exodus 34: 6 – 7
And the Lord passed by before him, and proclaimed, The Lord, the Lord God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and truth, 7 keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children’s children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.

God’s glory is revealed  through his mercy, grace, love, forgiveness, longsuffering, truth, goodness, justice. His love cannot be diminished.

We can achieve encouragement from God’s promise to uphold his people.

We can not do anything of lasting value without God. We are powerless.

We receive power when:

  • We remember and realize how great our God is.
  • How sinful we are.
  • And when we recognize the extent of his forgiveness.

Holiness means:

  • Morally perfect.
  • Pure.
  • Set apart from all sin.

Interesting Fact: 
“King Uzziah died of leprosy for trying to take over the High Priest’s duties. (2 Chronicles 26:18-21) He was a good king, despite this, but many of his people turned away from God and our goal should be to get people to turn to God.”  Study Bible – KJV

Interesting Fact: 
“This is the only time the seraphims are mentioned in the bible. They are angelic beings created by God. Isaiah was able to understand them they spoke to him and as they praised God.” Study Bible – KJV

When will you listen to God? Must you go through hardships and misfortunes before you listen to God? Is God telling you to obey before time runs out?

Believe Without Seeing

John 20:29
Jesus saith unto him, “Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.

Your sins have been forgiven, if you accept Jesus’s message. When we find faith and repentance we can tell all that our sins have been forgiven.

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Do you find yourself saying to yourself or thinking if only you could see, hear talk to Jesus, face to face, then you would believe in him? Maybe if you seen a miracle then you would believe?

The bible tells all kinds of miracles that Jesus performed and men even then that seen the miracles still did not believe. Instead they chose to prosecute him. (God gives us free will to make our own choices).

Jesus went through with this and God allowed this to happen to his only Son for me and you to have a way to be forgiven for all our sins. This is how much he loves us. Find this story in the bible in the book of Matthew chapter 27. Click Here to go to amazon to purchase a KJV bible if you don’t have one 🙂

“Jesus says blessed is the man who believes without seeing. We have all the proof we need in the bible and the testimony of believers. A physical appearance would not make Jesus any more real to us then he is now” Study Bible KJV

I recommend checking out my post Which Destination do you Choose?

Do Right Till The Stars Fall

12 And the angel of the Lord appeared unto him, and said unto him, The Lord is with thee, thou mighty man of valour. 13 And Gideon said unto him, oh my Lord, if the Lord be with us, why then is all this be fallen us? and where be all his miracles which our fathers told us of saying, Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt? but now the Lord hath foresaken us, and delivered us unto the hands of the Midianites. 14 And the Lord looked upon him, and said, Go in this thy might, and thou shalt save Israel from the hand of the Midianites: have not I sent thee? Judges 6: 12-14

Israel was not following God. They did not teach the next Generation to Love and follow God. This caused a continuing cycle of sin, judgment and repentance.

To love and follow God is the center of his Law. (Deuteronomy 6:4-9) The home offers the most effective place to pass on the faith to the next generation because children learn best by example.


Shine Bright

I am ever so thankful that I have ears to hear his word, eyes to read his word and the freedom to share his word. There is Christians out there today that are hidden from sight and can’t be identified as Christians. They do not have the freedom to read freely and tell others about the word like we do. We need to be praying for those who do not have the freedom. We also need to recognize and take advantage of the gift of freedom given to us to be out there spreading his word and letting our lights shine bright.


Which Destination do you Choose?

I have been thinking about this post for a while and while at church Sunday one of the members of the church (we don’t currently have a pastor) preached about this very topic! I was so excited and thought to myself “YES! I have help getting this down on paper”


My Testimony

I could be wrong about this but I may have been to young when I got saved. I talked previously how I found my way back. Read about it here. I was sitting in church listening to the sermon. “The Holy Spirit has to draw them to conviction.” I feel that the Holy Spirit did this with me. Just kept at me, this path your going down is a messy one. (Find salvation here)

Change is needed kept going through my head for a long time, roughly about two years before I gave in. I say that because I came across something I wrote in my diary I guess you would call it mentioning how much I hated who and how I was and the date at the top of the page.

Back in March 2018 my oldest daughter got saved. I felt at that time I was talking to her about it that I had rock bottom mentally and emotionally. For the first time I actually felt depressed and could care less if I got out of bed or not. The only thing that kept me going was the fact that my kids needed me, so I forced myself out of bed and went about my day the best I could. I couldn’t help but also feel my lifestyle and choices I was making just wasn’t right. I kept thinking about how she did this and it wouldn’t leave my head for me to accept Jesus into my heart and allow him to take over my life.

I also had a much better understanding of what it meant to be saved, repent your sins, be forgiven, to follow Jesus. I knew what needed to be done to make things turn around for the better. I was okay with making those sacrifices and giving up those bad habits and worldly ways. I was excited to do so and I knew I would have Jesus right there with me helping me along the way. 

So after my daughter got saved I got saved a few weeks afterwards. (I was already saved) The changes in my actions, my wants, my mind set pretty much did a complete 180! My biggest change is the way I view things now and think about things, being able to forgive that person that hurt me the most in life. I used to hold grudges and didn’t think I did but I did and I had a lot of hate in my heart. I didn’t even realize it until things started changing. Things have been changing still more so on the inside then the outside. I feel at peace with my past, I feel Joy, fulfillment, excitement and I am very content. 

By Accepting Christ:

  • We will know new freedom and happiness, and Joy.
  • We will not regret the past.
  • We will comprehend the word serenity.
  • We will see how our past will benefit others.
  • No feelings of uselessness or self-pity.
  • We will not be interested in selfish things and will like helping others.
  • We will not feel the need to find ourselves.
  • Our whole attitude and outlook will change, for everything for the better.
  • We will not be afraid of people and insecurity will leave us.
  • We will know how to handle situations even if we were clueless before.
  • We will realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves

Saul’s Conversion

Before Paul was converted his name was Saul. Saul’s Goal was to destroy christianity by persecuting christians. He believed the Christian movement was dangerous to Judaism, This is what caused paul to hate the Christian faith and persecute Christians without mercy.

First I need to tell you about who Stephen is. Stephen was a follower of Jesus. He was the manager of distributing food in the early church. He was also the first Christian to die for his faith. Stephen was a powerful speaker. When Stephen’s faith was questioned, antagonist his response was convincing. He made a summary of the Jews own history and made powerful applications that “stung” his listeners. 


The Tax Collector Zacchaeus

Jesus forgave Zacchaeus sin, he didn’t just look at him and say he was corrupt and moved on, Instead he built a relationship with him and spent time with him. This caused Zacchaeus heart to change and he decided from that point on the live a life that exalted Christ

Zacchaeus was a chief among the publicans. He was rich, corrupt and dishonest. When Jesus entered Jericho, Zaccheus wanted to see Jesus but he couldn’t because he was so short. So Zacchaeus ran ahead and climbed a tree to see him.

When Jesus arrived at the tree he looked up and saw him and said to him “Zacchaeus, make hase, and come down: for today I must abide at thy house.” He came down and greeted him joyfully. The onlookers mumbled under their breath and said he was going to be a guest with a man that is a sinner.


Imperfect Christian

Now I had to actually deal with my past, confess and ask for forgiveness …I had quite the list and my head hung low while confessing to Jesus but He already knew what I had done, there was no hiding anything from him. Like I said before He knows us better than we know ourselves. I thought since I stopped going to church and strayed away and went the worldly way that I was never going to be forgiven and that I was going to go to Hell. I was young, naive and miss informed. I have since learned differently.

I stopped going to church, I stopped praying, I strayed away and that is when the devil stepped in. He stepped in when I was at my weakest and he told me lies. The devil hates me and he hates you and wants to keep us as far away from God as possible. Don’t underestimate the devil he has a lot of years experience, corrupting, lying, and manipulating humans.  The world is his playground.


God’s love

all who believed in him in the past, presence and future are all God’s family. We all have the same father, he created everything and is the rightful owner of everything. If you are part of his family He promises his love and power. It is important to stay close and stay in contact with other believers in the body of Christ. Those who pull from God’s family and don’t bother with them and try to do life on their own is cutting themselves off from God’s power.

“Paul tells us that God’s love is total. It reaches every corner of our experience. It is long–it continues the length of our lives. it is deep– it reaches to the depths of discouragement, despair, and even death. It is wide–it covers the breadth of our own experience, and it reaches out to the whole world. It is high–it rises to the heights of our celebration and elation. When you feel shut out or isolated, remember that you can never be lost to God’s love”. (Study Bible KJV)



Love these verses. I have BIG trust issues. I struggle with them on a daily basis. I am not really sure why to be honest. I don’t know where these trust issues came from. It is so frustrating because I even questioned if I could fully trust the Lord. I prayed about it. Not only to trust him but for my trust issue in general. These are the verses that spoke to me


God wants to forgive

I mentioned about the bad habits…the smoking and the drinking. I was, I think, borderline Alcoholic. There I said it out loud. (well wrote it lol) I’m clearly still dealing with some of that but It is getting so much easier and life is so much more enjoyable.

However, I did not get here overnight. Not even close. God wouldn’t leave me alone to give it ALL up. There was this gut wrenching feeling of guilt and my annoying voice in my head telling me every time I put that drink to my lips not to do it. Did I listen? Nope…Do I wish I did? Yes…I wish I had listened sooner. But that was me being Stubborn Ash…as usual.


I found my way back

As I have previously mentioned I grew up going to church. My life was good back then. Yes, it had it’s usual up and downs which were usually me not getting my own way or having little spats with my friends. I was happy, though, and I use to have a spark in me like my youngest daughter does now


Ask the Blind Man

So many of us are blind and we don’t even know it.
We trust on this earth without seeing. We trust what the doctor says without actually seeing any results ourselves or knowing how to read them. We trust what the description and symptoms say when prescribed medicine. We trust the nurses, ambulance drivers, when we are in need of help. We trust teachers and that they are teaching the correct curriculum in their classrooms. We trust the sign man holding a stop sign and talking to the guy around the corner and up the hill that he can’t see to tell us when it is safe to go. But we don’t know these people, where they come from or how they got to where they are.


A Reminder To Stay Focused

Philippians 4:12&13
12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

We should be asking and trying to see life from God’s point of view.  Focus on what we are suppose to do, not what we feel we should have. Not based on our feelings or emotions.

The devil likes to keep you in a place where you feel doubtful I guess the best way to put it. He will tell you lies to get you there.

The lord tells us we need to resist the Devil and he will flee.  Be thankful for everything the lord has given you. Concentrate on the good and the progress you have made. 

Do as Paul did and detach yourself from the nonessentials and concentrate on the eternal. Even in the midst of a storm stay focus on Jesus and Trust God.

No earthly father? We all have a heavenly father.

Romans 5:5 and hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

Some of you may or may not know this about me, but I do not know my biological father. I have seen a picture and know his name but that is it. If I was to pass him on the street I would not know who he was.

That is ok, I am ok with that. He has been forgiven and I hold no grudges. That is his choice for whatever reason I don’t know and maybe it was a good one. It doesn’t matter now.

I have been blessed with an earthly father who choose to take care of me and still is in my life today!! He is a great man who is gentle, kind, wise and always there for me no matter what. I understand that not all are as lucky I am in that way, so I want you to know you do have a heavenly father who loves you and will be there to guide you and help you grow. He will be there for you to talk to and lean on whenever you need him. He is Our heavenly father.

Psalm 103: 13-22

13 Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him. 

14 For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

15 As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.

16 For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place therof shall know it no more.

17 But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children’s children;

18 To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them.

19 The Lord hath prepared his throne in the heavens; and his kingdom ruleth over all

20 Bless the Lord, ye his angels, that excel in strength, that do his commandments, hearkening unto the voice of his word.

21 Bless ye the Lord, all ye his hosts; ye ministers of his, that do his pleasure.

22 Bless the Lord, all his works in all places of his dominion: bless the Lord, O my soul

God is like a father who is tender and compassionate (not every child has one)

Unfortunately and sadly children are robbed of loving fathers because of abuse and dysfunction. My heart justs breaks for those children. 

If you find yourself in that situation or know of someone in that situation, I want you to know God is here for you to be the father you never had or perhaps felt you never needed. You can receive his love (Romans 5::5) even though you can not do the physical things with you. 

Romans 5:5 and hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

God can tenderly heal your deep loss. Trust him and he will deal with you compassionately.

When you Question your Salvation

I recently published a post about being unsure and questioning if I was really saved. Read about it here. After chatting about this with another close friend of mine. I have realized that Yes I was saved when I was younger like I had originally thought I was 🙂 Here is how I got to my conclusion…

It is natural and normal to wonder if you are saved, especially if you go astray like I did for a few years. Read about it here. Either way I was being convicted of a sinful life or conviction of making sure, it is not uncommon. I found it reassuring to know that I was not that the only one to question this at some point. Even mature Christians struggle.

At some point though we have to just TRUST God in his word. Besides trusting God there is no assurance.

Some verses to help you if you may be wondering about your salvation:

2 Timothy 3: 14-15 But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou has learned them; 15 and that from a child thou hast know the hold scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.

1 Timothy 6: 11-12 But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness. 12 Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses.

Colossians 2: 6-7 As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk ye in him: 7 rooted and built up in him, and established in the faith, as ye have been taught, abounding therein with thanks-giving.

Sometimes this is an important part that people overlook, the assurance of salvation. If we have to get saved over and over again there isn’t much assurance in that…however, it is true that some never really get saved, but conviction for a child is different, it doesn’t mean it isn’t conviction. Kids respond to it usually immediately where adults struggle sometimes for years.